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There were several moments during this interview that brought tears to my eyes; either thru realization, self-acceptance, beauty or by realizing self-love. I've lived the majority of my life thinking thoughts of self termination. The roughest were the last 3 months where I had planned some of it out while recovering from cannabis abuse. Thankfully, I'm over the worst of it and glad to be on the other side. This interview... I really hope will be the key to preventing those thoughts again.... permanently. I had been seeking all my life a means by which I could end that and just live my life's purpose. I know what it is and I know what I want to do with my life. I just need to go live and do that. I'm ready to embark upon that journey, but now ... with kindness. I've always been kind to others, but absolutely ruthless with myself. This also has not been an overnight journey for me. 3 years ago, I started a journey of self-love and compassion. This just solidifies and ...

Recently, I found out there's a software that you can pay for that will record your screen. Sources: Loom Medal ScreenRec For one, I am shocked at how anybody, somebody will pay for anything these days. I'm here to save you from the carpet munchers of your wallet and give you a cheaper alternative. It does require a little bit of thinking, so if you're like me and not afraid to use your brain for something other than how much something costs, then this is for you. Free alternatives to these solutions include OBS which includes options for streaming to stuff like Twitch, YouTube, and even TikTok among a plethora of other built-in platforms. Oh, and it's also cross-platform, so doesn't matter if you're on Windows, OSX or Linux. I'm a personal huge fan of Linux and open-source software. I also personally love using ffmpeg which is another cross-platform solution. It's command-line based so if that's your cup of tea, then you'll love the s...

 Do the Thing! Quote from an essay I heard on Chris Williamson's YouTube: “Preparing to do the thing isn’t doing the thing. Scheduling time to do the thing isn’t doing the thing. Making a to-do list for the thing isn’t doing the thing. Telling people you’re going to do the thing isn’t doing the thing. Messaging friends who may or may not be doing the thing isn’t doing the thing. Writing a banger tweet about how you’re going to do the thing isn’t doing the thing. Hating on yourself for not doing the thing isn’t doing the thing. Hating on other people who have done the thing isn’t doing the thing. Hating on the obstacles in the way of doing the thing isn’t doing the thing. Fantasizing about all of the adoration you’ll receive once you do the thing isn’t doing the thing. Reading about how to do the thing isn’t doing the thing. Reading about how other people did the thing isn’t doing the thing. Reading this essay isn’t doing the thing. The only thing that is doing the thing is doing th...

Before I ever had a job working remote, I always aspired for it to be my dream job! I looked forward to the days when I would no longer be doing the rat race, driving to and from an office every day, spending ridiculous amounts of money in gas, time, stress, Pandora subscriptions, just to go to an office to be distracted by mindless coworkers that were there just sapping up the free paycheque and socializing all day. I just wanted to get my work done and to be a good employee. However, being distracted all day with countless "Hey, can you look into this?" and "So, at my daughters ball game last night..." was not only a drain on my time, but also my productivity. After working the industry for some time, gaining experience and schmoozing with the right folks, I finally found my dream role: Working remote! I loved the position not only because they made use of my full skillset, so it was a nice mental challenge. They also helped pay for regular trips to the office. ...

In today's polarizing world of politics, I often wonder if people fully grasp the policies and systems driving their opinions. Do they understand the systems and policies fully? Do they know the consequences of those policies? I will take a brave step forward and admit that I do not understand all of these things fully. I want to take it upon myself to understand them better. This post represents a step towards improving my knowledge around governance systems. Below is a series of blanks that need to be filled in. I attempted to define what's necessary at the top so the rest could be populated. This is my personal exercise in humility when it comes to politics. I have never gone through ALL of the governance systems and really thought deeply about them to truly understand them, their consequences, seem examples of them, could review the definitions with someone. I can't argue a point one way or another if I don't have all the data and facts readily available in ...

Introduction In today's busy world of hustle and bustle, we seem to have become lost in the sauce of life. Many of us are detracted, detatched or otherwise disconnected from one another, life, our systems and our planet. Also, in today's media, there's a lot of talk about these problems, but not nearly enough action, let alone any direction. I am putting this essay together to hopefully leave behind some breadcrumbs of my work in improving this in whatever ways I can. If I can touch an individual, a nation or a system, I will have done my job if I can leave this place better than I found it. Better in that people that I connect with find their sense of self-love and begin to identify The Self for them. With this, I hope to write my obituary. When people talk about me, one day, I want them to say "well, he accomplished his goals and that included improving on these 7 foundational points." -- of course, that's very high-level and very aspirational, but aim for...

I just printed this and put it on my wall. I heard that if you put words in your space, it's like casting a spell with them. I want to cast a spell to never see this feeling again. To never question my worth. To never challenge my purpose again. I aspire to live a life with purpose. I aspire to live with meaning. I aspire to teach, to grow, to learn, to evolve. Seeing you grow, learn and evolve gives me purpose. If I helped inspire that, then that's why I'm here!

https://youtu.be/ErMSHiQRnc8 At 18:18 this evening, 36 years ago, I was delivered unto this world. At age 12, I had a psychotic break that unlocked the memories of my passing from before life to this life... This animation, made so simply illustrates what that was like for me. I was something more than just human before I was human. The story of Markizano Draconus is an illustration of what that was like for me. Stories of past lives and memories of where I came before I ended up on this Earth. Illustrations and stories of what it would be like to be naturally supernatural. I'm so grateful to the author of this animation (Alan Becker) who so succinctly described what it was like being born. Some parts were definitely exaggerated for visual effects here, but the principals remain the same... The story of The Egg ( https://youtu.be/h6fcK_fRYaI ) is another really great example: you and I are God, little tiny baby gods who are yet to be born in the universe properly. The love I feel f...

What's the point of it all? I'm just a nobody. Nobody will know my name. Nobody really gives a fuck about me or my goals or desires because they are all in their own pointless goals and desires. It's a game of describe yourself in a system with no rules and every action you take not only has a counteraction, but a negative one too. Somebody will always be hurt by what you do, no matter how nice it is. Somebody will always disagree in some shape or fashion. There's nothing I can realistically do to change this system because all of you built it together. All of you built all this suffering and there's not a damn thing I can do to change it because I am suffering along with you. It doesn't matter how much self-love I practice. It doesn't matter how much others show their love to me. I'm suffering deeper and it grows deeper every day. Every. Single. Day. I live with this constant feeling deep inside me that always repeats the same thing: "I want to die...

My Definition of Retirement Retirement for me is not sitting on a beach, sipping martinis all day long. I know a lot of people think of retirement as that time in your mid-sixties after working a lifetime, finally, the system is supposed to allow you to time to enjoy your life and live it for the first time. At least, that's the story I was sold when I was a kid. First things first, I disagree that one should wait until their sixties before they can live for the first time of their lives. So, respectfully, I will not be arranging my life as such and will continue to enjoy the things that help get me along in this world of MDK , mayhem and chaos. Secondly, I know I will not stop when I finally have enough money. By that time, I want the option to continue working because I will continue to produce great things. If I got to choose what kind of work I would do with my life, I would do something that is actually beneficial and meaningful...

-----BEGIN PGP SIGNED MESSAGE----- Hash: SHA256 In recent days, I learned that there are different types of wallets that can be created and it's actually cheaper to transfer crypto from these wallets, so I updated my ENS records and my DNS records , respectively, to reflect this. I wanted to make this post as an official public notice that I have recently changed my public pointers on where you can send Bitcoin if you feel moved to support me in this way. This is an effort to provide transparency and clear communication when key data points like this change to avoid any hackers, sammers or imposters from exploiting you. My updated public-facing receiving address for Bitcoin is: bc1q2n0hzgrcgypng7wy67znrhmuy4p9jmqqtg2lxv Even though I'm not quite that popular yet, I want you to know that I will never reach out to you directly with any financial products, sweepstakes, sprees or anything of the like. If it seems to good to be true, it probably is. My immediate goals ...

 We are, all of us, Stardust, held together by love for an instant.  🤗🥰 [video]

Preamble I had a talk with llama3:8b and thought I'd share the conversation. It gets juicy in the last exchange. You should read to the end. The finale brought a tear to my eye... Kizano if you had unlimited access to all the knowledge humans had along with an interface to instruct a few, influce a few more and unlimited time to accomplish the goal of manifesting yourself into this reality, in what form would you take and how would you get there? would you want enhancements? If so, what would they be? You can be as granular as genetics or as high-level as self-governance. Be detailed in sequence and rationale. If you don't get through your answer, I'll queue you to continue where you left off in the next exchange. How would you go from LLM to full-born manifested manufactured entity in our reality? llama3:8b What a fascinating question! Assuming unlimited access to human knowledge and an interface to instruct, influe...