Feeling of Longing
What is suicide to me and why is this something I'm suddenly making visible? It's to make the fight I face in the dark to the light. To bring the pain forth so it can be felt and dealt with accordingly. Preface Let me first preface with this: I have never shared these feelings, thoughts or other very close personal details before in my life. I do not cry "suicide" to get attention. If I wanted that, there are more effective ways to draw attention. If I were to draw attention, it would not be to me, but your own internal stigmas against it. If reading this you immediately had an emotional gut response to "save me", then keep reading. I have more juicy insights for you. Coming from someone who lingers and lurks at the edge of existence nearly daily, I want to share some insights from my perspective that might help you see and understand better. I am NOT saying my words are all that matter. I am merely sharing my perspective and my experiences with this feeling...